CHAPTER 4 THE LETTER THAT WAS NEVER SENT

âHe stole your motherâs entire life.â
Danielâs words followed me long after he stopped speaking.
I stared at the newspaper clipping sitting on the table.
A missing child.
A scratched-out name.
A message written in my motherâs handwriting.
He is alive.
Three words.
Three words that meant my mother had known.
She had known her son was alive.
And she had carried that secret for thirty-two years.
My first feeling wasnât sadness.
It was anger.
A deep, burning anger that started somewhere in my chest and spread through my entire body.
âShe knew.â
My voice was barely audible.
Daniel didnât deny it.
âYes.â
I looked up sharply.
âShe knew?â
âYes.â
âAnd she never told me?â
His silence was the answer.
I pushed away from the table.
The booth suddenly felt too small.
The walls too close.
The air too heavy.
âMy whole lifeâŠâ
My voice cracked.
âMy whole life I watched that woman cry over a dead child.â
Daniel watched me carefully.
âEvelynââ
âNo.â
I shook my head.
âYou donât understand.â
The bikers stayed silent.
I didnât care if they heard anymore.
I didnât care if strangers saw me break apart.
âI thought she was grieving.â
My eyes burned.
âI thought she was just a woman who lost her baby.â
I looked at the photograph.
âBut she knew.â
Daniel lowered his voice.
âShe knew he might still be out there.â
âMight?â
I looked at him.
âYou said he was alive.â
âI believe he was.â
âThatâs not the same thing.â
âNo.â
Daniel nodded.
âItâs not.â
The honesty stopped me.
I expected him to defend her.
To make excuses.
But he didnât.
âShe should have told you,â he said.
The words surprised me.
âYou really think so?â
âYes.â
âThen why didnât she?â
Daniel looked down.
âBecause your mother was afraid.â
I laughed bitterly.
âEveryone keeps saying that.â
âBecause itâs true.â
âAfraid of what?â
Daniel looked at me.
âAfraid that Thomas would find you.â
I froze.
âHe was still looking for me?â
âYes.â
âBut I was just a child.â
âThatâs why you were dangerous.â
I frowned.
âWhat?â
Daniel leaned closer.
âThomas knew your mother loved you more than anything.â
The words hit harder than I expected.
âHe knew if he threatened you, she would stop searching.â
I looked away.
âAnd she did.â
Daniel didnât answer.
Because he knew I was right.
For thirty-two years, my mother had lived quietly.
Too quietly.
She never traveled.
Never remarried.
Never talked about the past.
I had always thought she was simply broken.
Now I wondered if she had been hiding.
âWhere is the letter?â
Daniel looked confused.
âWhat letter?â
âYou said there was something written.â
He glanced at the photograph.
Then at the newspaper.
âNo.â
âWhat?â
âThat isnât the only thing I found.â
My heartbeat changed.
âWhat else?â
Daniel reached into his jacket.
This time, he pulled out a small envelope.
Old.
Yellowed.
The edges were worn from being handled too many times.
My breath caught.
âWhere did you get that?â
Daniel stared at the envelope.
âYour mother gave it to me.â
âWhen?â
âThirty-two years ago.â
âWhy?â
His eyes softened.
âBecause she thought she would never see her children again.â
The word hurt.
Children.
Not child.
I reached for the envelope.
But Daniel didnât let go.
âEvelyn.â
âWhat?â
âThere is something you should know before you read it.â
âWhat?â
Daniel hesitated.
Then he released the envelope.
âYour mother wrote this the night she left Thomas.â
My fingers trembled.
âThe night she ran away with me?â
âNo.â
I looked up.
âThen what?â
Danielâs face became heavy.
âThe night she ran away without me.â
I frowned.
âI donât understand.â
âShe thought I was dead.â
The words shocked me.
âWhat?â
âThomas wanted Margaret to believe everyone who tried to help her was gone.â
I looked at the envelope.
âWhat happened to you?â
Daniel looked away.
âI survived.â
âBut she didnât know?â
âNo.â
My heart hurt.
âShe thought she lost both of you?â
Daniel nodded.
âYes.â
For the first time, I understood something.
My mother hadnât just lost one child.
She had lost two.
She lost her son.
And she lost the man who tried to save him.
I carefully opened the envelope.
Inside was a single piece of paper.
The handwriting was shaky.
Older.
Painful.
But unmistakably my motherâs.
I began reading.
Daniel,
If you are reading this, then something has happened that I was afraid would happen.
I donât know where you are. I donât know if you are safe.
I donât know if my son is safe.
My breath caught.
I continued.
Thomas says Daniel is gone. He says our baby died. But a mother knows her child. A mother knows when something is wrong.
My eyes blurred.
I saw the fear in his eyes when I asked questions. I saw the anger when I refused to stop looking.
He did not lose our son. He took him.
I stopped reading.
The diner disappeared.
Only the words remained.
My mother knew.
She always knew.
I continued.
If I disappear, please find my children.
Tell Sarah that she was loved every single day.
My hands froze.
Sarah.
My birth name.
Tell Daniel that his mother never stopped loving him.
I swallowed hard.
Tell both of them that I tried.
The final sentence was written differently.
As if she had been crying.
I am sorry I could not save you both.
I lowered the letter.
I couldnât breathe.
Daniel was staring at me.
âShe wrote my name.â
âYes.â
âShe remembered.â
âYes.â
I looked at him.
âWhy didnât you send this to me?â
Danielâs face changed.
Pain.
Regret.
âI tried.â
âWhen?â
âYears ago.â
âAnd?â
âNo one knew where you were.â
I shook my head.
âMy mother knew.â
âYes.â
âThen why didnât she give it to me?â
Daniel looked away.
âBecause Thomas came back.â
The words froze me.
âWhat?â
âHe found her.â
âWhen?â
âMany times.â
My heart started racing.
âAre you saying he has been watching her?â
âYes.â
âThen why didnât he hurt her?â
Danielâs expression darkened.
âBecause sometimes making someone live with their pain is worse than killing them.â
A cold silence followed.
I folded the letter carefully.
âMy mother is in the hospital right now.â
Daniel nodded.
âYes.â
âAnd you think Thomas is involved?â
âI think someone wants her silent.â
I looked at him.
âAnd you?â
âWhat about me?â
âWhy come to this diner today?â
Daniel looked confused.
âI didnât.â
âWhat?â
âI wasnât supposed to be here.â
My stomach tightened.
âWhat do you mean?â
He looked toward the window.
âThe Iron Saints changed our route this morning.â
âWhy?â
âBecause my bike broke down.â
I stared.
âThatâs it?â
Daniel shook his head.
âNo.â
He looked back at me.
âI donât believe in coincidences anymore.â
A chill went through me.
âWhat are you saying?â
Daniel looked at the letter in my hand.
Then at me.
âI think your mother knew you would find me.â
I whispered:
âHow?â
Daniel pointed at the envelope.
There was something I hadnât noticed.
A small mark in the corner.
A symbol.
A black ink symbol.
The same symbol on the leather jackets of the four bikers.
The Iron Saints.
My eyes widened.
âWhat is that?â
Daniel looked at the patch on his jacket.
Then back at me.
âYour motherâs last message.â
I stared.
âWhat?â
Danielâs voice became quiet.
âShe didnât send me here to pretend to be your son.â
A pause.
âShe sent me here because she knew I was your brother.â
The world seemed to stop.
And then my phone rang.
I looked down.
The hospital.
My hands went cold as I answered.
âHello?â
The nurseâs voice came through.
âMs. Hale?â
âYes?â
âThereâs something you need to know about your mother.â
My heart sank.
âWhat happened?â
A pause.
Then:
âSomeone came to see her.â
I gripped the phone.
âWho?â
The nurse hesitated.
Then whispered:
May you like
âHe said his name was Thomas Hale.â
END OF CHAPTER 4